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03.24.05 - 12:21 a.m.
all by my self, woo hoo! i've neglected this journal, but, i'm coming around again and will be here more frequently, so there's plenty of time to catch up... fresh snowfall fell today, ending my short TWO day streak of walking outside without a hat. (btw, my head's shaved, meaning i consider myself a more reliable spring barometer than pennsylvania's groundhog. i just returned from an impulse run to see the movie _sideways_. how clever am i, huh? rather than bitch again about the cold front and burrow under my sheets early waiting for the misery to end, i hopped into my car and drove in 7 minutes flat to the movie theatre to watch a movie about driving though the california countryside. (now, if that's not proof positive that i've turned a corner in fighting these seasonal apocalytic disorder symptoms of mine, i don't know what is! i'll save this evidence for the therapist) oh, even better evidence that i'm DISsing SAD: i was the ONLY person who came to the 9:35PM screening - i felt like a friggin' princess, like i'd created this special fantasy getaway just for me...and felt okay about not buying a huge chocolate bar, bag of popcorn, or some accessory to keep me company. yes, all the above signs ring true that i'm finally in a position to make the most of the next seven weeks ahead.... i even had my first meeting with any committee member at 9:30AM this morning at a cafe. (i'm so not a morning person; still rolling with wonder that i said yes to that appointment and kept it!). * back in contact with professors
* have plan to submit chapter [AS IS] on monday
* therapist's a keeper
* i rearranged work area for the first time in FIVE years that i've lived in this apartment, and now have a writing space with a sunny view.
* got back in touch with best buddy college roommate who's moved back out to SF after she finished her MBA last year (hmmm, so how soon will i be having a place again to crash in california...and at least ONE of us will be financially stable) enough for now... will continue tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow ... how sweet it is that i can believe in tomorrows again
MUSIC: classic yo yo ma
READING: baldwin, tell me how long...
FEELING:sideways turning on upright!
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