04.15.03 - 11:16 p.m.

Kalabarians says.....

A name game brought to you by the kalabarian philosophical society. (i certainly don't endorse anything beyond their free name analysis. of course, i'll endorse just about anything that's free ;-))

names do matter. i'm certain of it. anyway, as i'm looking for another way to keep sitting down in front of my computer and type through the lump of anxiety clamped on my chest like a chain of mail utterly useless for the battle i need to wage, i decide to do a websearch on my sister's name. i'm not entirely creepy, i certainly *do* know where my sister is...she's the youngest of us three siblings, and still lives at home (lord help her) while finishing up high school this year. the internet quest had more to do with the fact that when my sister was born, my parents let my brother and i come up with her name. i think that's the most progressive generous act that i can remember them ever committing (when it comes to family matters. so my brother and i came up with a hybrid of three different names and she lucked out with a truly original appellation, that also sounds quite beautiful. on top of that her middle name is 'joy', so i know my brother and i didn't do a terrible job!

btw, i really believe the fact that she has an original name, which she's forced to speak up and repeat and often spell for other people really has shaped her into a more gregarious person. at least when it comes to introductions. so in the name of anxiety patrol, but what other's would call procrastination, i type her name in and i get exactly one web site: the kabalarian philosophical society. this society that apparently blends western mathematical theories with eastern philosophies...somehow they've equated the english alphabet and number system with personality traits, and based on the name you input, they generate a combination of the letters of one's name to come up with a name analysis.

her name came up, and then all three of my names... i can do without the anatomy analysis (digestion, sinuses etc...) but there is something to their response about my names. i'm not going to go change my birth certificate or anything. it's nice to think of something more pleasant than the namelessness associated sadness that's been on my mind for the last few days. so enjoy!

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S_____________

Your first name S_________creates a dual nature in that you can be very generous and understanding, but you can also be so candid in your expression that you create misunderstanding. You struggle with the requirement to soften your expression with tact and diplomacy and to consider the feelings of others. Difficulty in accepting advice or admitting that you may have made a mistake causes you to appear to be stubborn and set in your ways. Thus, you have too often created the wrong impression, and friendships have suffered. This name does offer creative talent where there is the opportunity for ingenuity and originality. You have a tendency, at times, to have too many ideas on the go, and thus your efforts are scattered and many things do not reach completion. You are inclined to do to excess the things you like to do. You have very intense feelings and find it difficult to maintain stability and happiness. If you allowed it, temper and self-pity could be problems. Tension could cause nervous disorders, or centre in the head bringing weaknesses in the eyes, ears, sinuses, or teeth.

R__________

Your middle name of R__________ gives you a very idealistic but passive outlook on life. You desire culture and all the refinements of life but you are inclined to live in your dreams. Although you would like to do many things, procrastination undermines your accomplishment and success in life. You do not like to create issues and will do anything to avoid a conflict. Making decisions is difficult for you without the support and approval of others. This name gives you a very sensitive nature, making you feel much that you do not understand. Your feelings are easily hurt, at which times you are inclined to withdraw and become uncommunicative. Although you desire the friendship and association of others, you find it difficult to express your thoughts through the spoken word, and others find you hard to get to know. It is much more natural for you to express your deeper thoughts in writing. Inner tension can deplete your physical vitality. You are inclined to indulge in rich foods that lack proper nourishment. The physical weaknesses due to this name centre in the heart and respiratory organs, and in the fluid functions

R___________

The last name of R_________has given you an appreciation for many beautiful and refined aspects of life�music and art, literature, drama�and the outdoors, where you find much peace and relaxation, but it creates a far too sensitive nature. You sense and feel much that you do not understand, and sometimes you are alarmed at your thoughts and wonder about their origin. You rarely experience the tranquility that comes with stability of thinking or emotional control. At times, you are very inspired, desiring to be with people and to entertain others as the �life of the party,� while at other times you are aloof and choose to remove yourself entirely from association. You crave understanding and affection but your intensity of desire and your self-consciousness prevent you from finding the happiness you desire. You have suffered many disappointments and misunderstandings because of your inability to express your inner thoughts. You could experience sensitivity in the heart, lungs, or bronchial organs, causing tuberculosis, asthma, or depletion of your energies.

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